I've visited you again... How are you, my dear friend? :) If you ask me why am still up at this hour, it isn't about work... it is about being a mom. Yes, I am a full pledged mommy to a handsome (of course, no mom would say that they have an ugly baby) 1-month old baby boy. I am very exhausted but happy! :)
I was supposed to give birth by mid-July but some medical circumstances made me deliver a pre-term baby by mid-June. (I'd really like to think that it was medical and not brought about by other aspects such as physical, mental and emotional torture...hahaha!) Zef Iñigo, my adorable angel, gave an ear-splitting howl during Independence Day, June 12, 2012 right after Heat (YEHEY!) won over OKC and when Pacman lost to Bradley.
Despite the interestingly painful experience of giving birth, as previous moms narrated, I was very grateful to God that I have endured it and is now at home with a wonderful albeit tiring lil' bundle of joy. :) Mind you I was a high-risk pregnant woman and the things I experienced where all worthwhile when I heard him cry in the DR.
I have been dreaming about this for so long, wishing and praying real hard for it to happen without any thought of the consequences whatsoever...and now that my blessing is here, I am actually scared! Scared that I might not be able to take care of him properly! 1st-timer jitters, being a worry-wart and even crying when I experience frustration and tiredness are all very scary. These are new emotions that I am encountering everyday and thank God through HIS blessing and guidance, he sends "human angels" to guide and assist me. One human angel makes my shopping for me, another angel washes baby's clothes with mine (babies DO have a LOT of laundry...), another angel buys his milk and diapers, another would even drop a day's activity to watch over my baby so I could go and have my sutures removed, yet another helps me feed and burp him, another sings lullabies and reads poems in an animated voice, another taught me how to cut his nails and burp him, a couple even shared their outgrown baby's clothes so I can minimize my expenses at least until it's really time to buy, another makes sure that our room is clean, another angel gives financial assistance, another helps me carry him when am exhausted, even another stays up late so I can sleep while my baby is getting cranky, etc. Oh so many life's angels and I thank each and every one of them from the bottom of my heart.
It is a really emotional time and fighting post-partum like depression symptoms is not easy. I make sure that I stay positive and God-centered in my responsibilities so that I will not be swayed by anything unholy. It is not easy and I pray constantly so I could make it each and every day. "Thank you Lord for giving me the chance to experience your goodness not only during tiring times but always! I would not know how I can survive without You. I am very happy and feel very blessed. Please make me worthy to continue receiving Your grace so I could mold my child to your image and likeness and be Your good servant and follower to carry out Your holy will today and always..Amen."
Yes, I am happy to be blessed and I am a very thankful mom! Thank you life's angels, let me be one when and where I am needed. :)
